It's fucking hard to keep going day in and day out when you are or have suffered abuse of any kind. There are life long effects from abuse and it should be taken very seriously. If you're in a bad situation, get the fuck out. I know it seems impossible when you're in an abusive relationship but the alternative could be your life. You can go to www.thehotline.org to get help right now. Did you know you can also go to you any hospital or fire station and tell them you're in fear for your life and they will help you? You need to protect you. Choose you. Don't let them win. You still have time.